Wednesday, January 9, 2013

My vision

The Lord has been working on my heart a lot since we found out I was pregnant.

My desire for Him has grown leaps and bounds.

What kind of mother will I be?
Will I be capable of portraying the love of God correctly?
How am I going to shape and mold this life that God has given me?

These and many more questions have flooded my mind since I saw those two pink lines.

New Year's Day especially I thought about my life. New Years always makes me reflect on the previous year and look forward with much anticipation to the upcoming year.

This is my heart... That I didn't know I could put into words until it was pouring out of me early New Years morning to my loving husband.

I desire to know The Lord.. To TRULY know The Lord. I want to be considered "different" and "set apart". I believe with my whole heart that I am CALLED to be set apart. I know I put pressure on myself to live a certain way but I feel that I have been given this beautiful gift of life because Jesus died on the cross for ME. I want to LIVE for Him. I cannot do things that would prohibit me from speaking the gospel at any given moment. If someone was to call me or text me {at any time} needing prayer or had a question about The Lord I want to be able to share with them. I want to ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS listen to the Holy Spirit and be in a position to spread that same love I have found.

So this is my vision. This is my focus. I don't feel scared anymore on what kind of mother I will be because I trust that I will be lead by Holy Spirit in raising all of my children and being an example to them and my husband.

6 comments:

tmack said...

You will be an amazing mother because of your relationship with the Lord. If I've learned anything its that I know I am loved, and I get my Love from the Lord. My husband and I love each other with the Love that we know we have from God individually and then Love our son with that same love. I know that I am called to Love my boy beyond all the little nuances and does and don'ts.

Nicole said...

You are SO encouraging, Monica. I think that you are going to be a wonderful Mama to this sweet baby. Your desire for the Lord will change the way you mother and I hope that I can say the same thing one day!

Mariel Collins said...
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Mariel Collins said...

You will be a wonderful Godly mother. It is truly encouraging to see other women strive to get closer to the savior, it inspires and encourages me thank you:) I hope this will one day be my prayer!

Megan said...

I somehow missed the pregnancy announcement. Congratulations! I can see where it's easy to doubt yourself-raising a child is a huge job, but your faith in the Lord will guide you. You're an encouragement.

Michelle Taylor said...

Aww I love this! You almost made me cry <3