Monday, September 26, 2011

writing my story

Well i have recently started journaling again. I LOVE it! i used to journal all of the time and i loved it. But when i started planning my wedding.. i stopped. The other day i decided to pick up my pen and composition notebook and jot down what i am feeling and going through again.

Journaling has always helped me process how i am feeling, remember what i have gone through, encouraged me to keep going, and to see what God has done in my life, and reminds me of His promises. I think its important for me to journal and its something i truly enjoy.

I think that EVERYONE should journal.. and when my husband and i were first started dating i even bought him a nice journal to write in. I told him it was his turn to write HIS story. I believe that everyone has a story to tell.. and you never know when and who will need to hear it. We may not think it is interesting... but someone may find it intriguing and can even HELP them in whatever situation.

I am VERY real and honest in my journal. i do not sugar coat or embellish what i am going through or how i am feeling. I write when i am happy... and when i am sad... and every emotion in between. (: I want to be able to look back on it in the future and see how i became the woman i am THEN. (: I look back on my journals from a few years ago (like before i met my husband) and its soo amazing to see what i have gone through and what i was feeling... and such. (:

I encourage everyone to journal and write your story... even if you are the only one who reads it... its nice to see how you've grown and changed. In days, weeks, months, and years. (:

your story, writing, and love. - M

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Saturday, September 17, 2011

pasta for a week.

Well its 10:00pm on Saturday night and i am sitting in my apartment watching a marathon of Diners, Drive-ins, and Dives on Food Network.

Yup, my husband couldn't come home tonight after all. They did not get off work until after 6pm and they are 5 hours away and were too tired to drive home. :( So... (hopefully) he will be home tomorrow.

Before i knew if he was coming home or not i decided to cook dinner that i knew he would like and that would last even if he didn't come home until super late. I made delicious bow tie pasta with chicken, broccoli and alfredo sauce. It was very good but i think  know that i maybe went a little overboard.

I have a lot of left overs! I dont think i will need to cook for awhile. hehe.

oh well... at least no matter when or what time my husband comes home... there is PLENTY of food here for him!

I have ALOT of respect for people who are in a constant long distance marriage (with spouses who travel for work, military, and school). This is sooo much harder then i thought it would be. I mean we did long distance while we were dating... but it SOOO much harder now that we are married. He has been gone for 8 days... i cant imagine those wives who cant see their husbands for 8 months! My heart goes out to all of you.

Also.. i soaked my fingernails in acetone nailpolish for an ENTIRE 30 minute show... and i FINALLY got all my fake nails off (from my wedding!). hooray!! They look TERRIBLE... but i am glad they are off!

pasta, needing a manicure, and love - M

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Friday, September 16, 2011


I just had a Skype date with a very lovely friend of mine.

She is going through some heartbreak.
I believe that heartbreak is the worst hurt someone can feel.. because so much more comes with it.
Its a hurt that is deep in your soul... where crying just doesn't feel like its enough. Even if it has been sometime.. the hurt and pain can remain.
Heartbreak can cause a person to be closed off, bitter, fearful, judged, and broken. It can make a person be emotionally turned off from future relationships because of the yuckiness that is still in their heart. 

Like i told my friend... it is SOO important to forgive the other person (or persons) involved in your wounded heart. Hating them (or cursing them) does not HURT them... but it kills you. Ill feelings kills your spirit, your vibrancy, you future relationships, and it keeps your heart in a dark tomb. While they are off living their lives just as they always have you are toiling inside.

Learn to forgive wholeheartedly. Forgiving them is in NO WAY saying that what they did was okay (because it probably wasn't okay), nor is it saying that what you are feeling is not valid. Forgiving them is taking back the power that they have over you. It is saying "what you did was wrong and hurt me... i am stepping away from you emotionally and taking back everything that i freely gave you... and everything that was stolen from me. In return i give back to you anything that you have freely given me, and anything i took from you. I completely forgive you for [whatever it is] and i release you to be happy."

i know, i know... it sounds silly to say all of that... but its worth it. It may take some time to forgive but it is something that we need to do in order to move on with our lives. Colossians 3:13 tells us to forgive just as the Lord has forgiven us. Not because it is the "right thing to do" but because the Lord has forgiven us.

Forgiveness can release you from that tormenting heartbreak we have all felt at some time in our lives.

Unforgiveness for heartbreak hurts us and our future (or current) relationships. :( Not fun.

Remember - Psalm 147:3 "He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Sending you lots of love and happiness!

forgiveness, restored hearts, and love. -M

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Thursday, September 15, 2011

he's coming home!

My husband has been gone for a week for work now and he will be home on Saturday!

I am OVERJOYED! i cannot wait to see him! i am planning a delicious meal of chicken alfredo and dutch apple pie!!!

I work today... and then i have two days off to clean and cook by the time he comes home.

I sure am learning that "absence makes the heart grow fonder". hehe.

I am off to work... which i am enjoying because then i don't focus on how much i miss my husband.

absence, homecoming, and love - M

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Tuesday, September 13, 2011

weddings. weddings. weddings.

My friend, beautiful Shawna, got married on 9.10.11!

It was outside at her local church, with the reception inside. I thought i would be all weddinged out with my wedding just 3 weeks ago.... but i had a lot of fun!

I came on Friday night and finished up baking the cupcakes. She did almost everyone DIY! I couldnt have done that but i am proud she did!
baking the cupcakes
She even made her daughter's flower girl dress!!!
her daughter was my flower girl too (:
It was a very short and sweet ceremony... with a quote that was used at my wedding that i LOVED about Eve coming from Adam's side.
"Woman was created from the rib of man.
She was not made from his head to top him,
nor out of his feet to be trampled upon,
but out of his side, to be equal to him;
under his arm, to be protected;
and near his heart, to be loved."


Her colors were soo fun too! Pink, yellow, blue, and purple. (: From flowers (which i put together before the ceremony) to details on the tables the colors were everywhere. (: 
Her girls all wore different color dresses - which i thought was really nice. 
the bride and her bridesmaids (:

 The bride piped the cupcakes just moments before the ceremony was starting...and they turned out perfect!!!
my little pink cupcake. (:
 Her maid of honor made the top two tier cake too! It turned out really cute!

Her whole family was involved too. Her maid of honor (who was in blue) walked in with her daughter (the flower girl also in blue). Her sister (bridesmaid.. who was in yellow) then walked with her son (who had a little yellow tie). And then her youngest sister (bridesmaid in pink) walked with her youngest son (who had a tiny little pink tie) So precious!
Shawna's two sons
 Overall Shawna was a beautiful bride and i am sooo happy i got to be apart of her big day! 
Congratulations Shawna!

 happy beginnings, life, and love - M

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Wednesday, September 7, 2011

His Mrs. (:

Well, it finally came! I am happily his beloved wife!!! (:

The rehearsal went sooo well! Everyone was there to help and set up all the tables and linens. (: We practiced how the ceremony would generally go.. and i didnt get emotional. (:

The wedding day was absolutely perfect!
We got up super early and had breakfast at the hotel and immediately started getting ready. I got my hair done first and i LOVED the end result! The inbetween was a little funny. hehe. (she curled all of my hair and pinned it all over my hair).

I got my makeup done at the MAC counter and it was soo fun! i had never done that before and i loved it! i got fake lashes and everything! (:

After my sis-in-law and i were done getting beautified at MAC we decided to go to In n Out and get some delicious food before the ceremony. I had NEVER seen In n Out that busy before! There was a drive thru line out to the street and like 300 people inside!!! We were waiting for ever! My hair was all done and my make up was applied and i was in pjs! lol. We had to be at the ceremony site at 1pm to get take pics and put our dresses on and it was like noon! We FINALLY got our food (after i silently commanded that I was the bride!) and left to the ceremony site.
yummy in-n-out!

We ate our food and put our dresses on. We took TONS of pics in the heat outside! Then we were rushed into the room so that i couldn't see my groom before walking down the aisle. While waiting, me and my girls were spying on our guests while they walked in with excitement!
the flower girl and i looking outside.
An hour or so later it was time to line up.

My girls walked down... then the ring bearer and flower girl and i was FINALLY allowed to get out of the little room. My two brothers met me in the hallway and i joked that i needed to pee. We started laughing and giggling until... i could see my groom waiting for me. I walked down the aisle with tears swelling in my eyes trying my hardest to not look at the guests surrounding me. I just locked eyes with my groom and walked towards him. My brothers lovingly gave me away and i was then joined with my groom. (: We had a BEAUTIFUL ceremony with wonderful words, gorgeous music, and beautiful communion. i loved every minute of it!

We were announced Mr. and Mrs. and we walked outside. (: We took AMAZING pictures with our bridal party and then took absolutely STUNNING pictures of just him and i. i cannot wait to get them all.
this is us walking back in the reception being announced husband and wife.

We had a very fun reception with dinner and dancing and all of our guests enjoyed themselves. (:

NOW... we have been married almost 3 weeks and it has been soo fun! I am enjoying getting to know my new husband even more. We are excited for what God has planned for our new life together.

New beginnings and love. - M

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