I am at that point where I feel like I am always doing something but then I feel like I did nothing.
My new mom life is filled with changing diapers, breastfeeding, managing NapTime, singing "itsy bitsy spider" a million times, preparing easy to swallow meals, and chasing after a crawler who wants to put everything in his mouth.
The other day I realized that I am not spending enough time with The Lord. Sure... I am not doing anything WRONG. I am not getting drunk or sleeping around. I'm not killing people or cheating. I read my bible every few days and maybe even listen to a worship song. I say my little "thank you" prayer before I eat and before bed. That's good, right?
Except, that I felt myself being jealous of other people. I was having an attitude with my husband and would even get impatient with my ten month old. I was feeling bitter about certain situations. I was NOT in a good place. I was trying to find happiness in other places. I was trying to do everything in my own strength.
I had become stagnant. I was no longer pursuing The Lord. I was just there.
Holy Spirit is so good and reminded me that I had distanced myself. I was not in constant relationship with The Lord. I was meeting my daily quota of a bible verse but I was not truly spending time with God.
When I am actively pursuing The Lord then all my relationships flow from that.
I am never going to be perfect. I know that I need my Savior and His grace daily. And when I am spending time with Him I can receive that grace and glorify God.
His grace is sufficient for me.
It restores me.
It revitalizes me.
It refreshes me.
Friends, if you have been struggling in any way... Know that I am praying for you!
His grace is enough for you!
Even if you noticed that you are in a similar place as me and you have become stagnant.
In a place where you are just living from your own strength. You don't have to feel like this! Reach out to The Lord and allow His joy to cover you.
Find the joy in the every day.
Accept His grace.
Feel His love for you!
Fresh grace, new beginnings, and love. - Mrs. V